When you are eighteen, fresh out of high school you think you have everything planned out. Or you have nothing planned out and can’t wait to start making plans. Well, I was the one that thought I knew everything. I was going to get my degree in English, become a writer, writing amazing bestseller books or become an editor for a publishing company or newspaper. Oh, if only I could meet eighteen-year-old me. I would laugh right in her face a shake her out of her stupidity.
I swear I thought I knew everything there was to know. I didn’t need anyone’s advice, because who knew better for me than me? Now I am twenty-three years old, graduated over a year and a half ago and am working as a customer service representative.
At this moment in time, I have never felt more lost not just in my path for my career, but in my personal life as well. Guess it’s true what they say, your twenties are for finding yourself. Well, I am trying my best to find myself. I spent four years in college focusing on graduating and figuring out what I wanted to do in the future for a job that I forgot about doing the things that I love. I used to play tennis, hike, dance, read, write, play guitar, piano, and go to classes at the gym. I had a life! Not so much now. Each of those activities just slowly trickled off my priority list with the increase of school work.
So now, I am using this blog to help my goal of finding who I am. What better way to find me than to post about it and document it on the internet? That’s what us Millennials do right? This is one of my goals, to exercise the writing skills that I received from my 20,000 dollar degree. Ah, student loans. Another goal I am working on is reading more. I can’t remember the last time I sat and just read a book for pleasure. I miss that, my love and passion for reading.
I have no doubt in my mind I am not the only person my age struggling with this post-college what next fear. But I have to say everyone has a great way of hiding it through social media. Always a happy face on Instagram that’s for sure. Here though, this is a place to vent and try to figure out what’s next for me. I will be posting every screw-up, new activity, and all the crazy moments that happen in my life from here on out. Maybe I will even have a new post about a job in my field. That last one is a stretch but I am keeping my fingers and toes crossed.
Until next time…