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Living Life On Purpose

I love that quote. It’s from the book I was telling you guys about in the last post, You Are A Badass. At the end of Chapter 4 she is talking about one of her clients that go hit really hard with the Big Snooze where obstacle after obstacle hit him as he ventured off on his own trying to make his dreams happen. The poor man got hit by a bus! Among other intense crazy things that any other person would have thrown their hands up in the air and said screw it! I give up! But he didn’t. And this is the part where she says this:

…setting an excellent example for his kids about living life on purpose.”

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Imperium News

I have some really exciting news! My story on Wattpad has now received over 50 votes, has almost 350 views and has reached 80 comments! This is with just six of my chapters up! I don’t know if this is a really big accomplishment on this site, but I feel like it is. I don’t know how others have done with their stories on there, but I feel amazing. it has just been two weeks going on three and I have never felt more proud of something.

This isn’t a big lengthy post, and I have no idea if I am supposed to be posting on here every day or how long each post is supposed to be, but I don’t care. I treat this blog like my diary and I wanted to share this on here so badly. So.. yeah!

I will be posting a normal sized post on here tonight. Thank you for reading.

Until tonight 😉

Justine

P.S. here is the link to my story if you guys wanted to give it a read… just saying.

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You Are A Badass

Okay, so I am currently reading this book called You Are A Badass by Jen Sincero and I am obsessed with it! She is speaking to me in ways no other self-help book has. And I really think that it is because she acknowledges the fact that some people think self-help books and finding your faith is a load of crap.

She has such a funny and sarcastic narrative that it is so easy to just keep reading on. She talks about how you need to not live in the past or in the future, living in this moment is the most imperative thing. Because you can’t change the past and you can’t control the future but you can enjoy this moment happening right now. Continue reading “You Are A Badass”

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Imperium

So, I have some amazing news to share!

I posted my book that I have been writing for the last year on to the site called WattPad. It has been an amazing experience so far and it seems like people are actually liking my book!

Oh. and by the way I finished the book I was writing lol.

Sorry I have not been writing on here for the longest time. I am a very fickle human being apparently and forget to do things too easily. But I will try to be better as I am sure I will promise a thousand times more. I don’t even know if anyone really is reading these posts that I make, they are more so for me to purge my soul. Oh well. Continue reading “Imperium”

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When Did It Happen?

I once didn’t mind his morning breath. Then one day it bothered me.

I used to not mind the smell of cigarettes on him. Then one day I did mind.

When did it happen? When did I start being bothered by the things he did? It didn’t bother me in the beginning of our relationship, so why now? Should that have been my sign that things weren’t working out between us? The same happened for him. He didn’t mind my eating habits, that I didn’t like certain foods, but then out of the blue he minded. He started making comments about me never trying anything new. He started making fun of me in front of others that I was getting “the same old thing”. When did things change between us?

Ever since the split I have been going back over the last four years of my life. As I am sure many people do after a break up. I am the textbook case of an over-thinker. It’s my gift or curse, however you want to look at it. I am also good at losing track of my thoughts, let’s get back in focus.

So my question is, when did the rose colored glasses get knocked off? When did we start being bothered by the others flaws? Does it happen to everyone right away? Even the ones who have made it work? I would like to meet the ones who have made it work. They have looked past their partners flaws and learned to love them unconditionally. Why do most of us have conditions? When do the conditions go away? After too many relationships have worn us down? Until we have given up our original expectations?

Like Rachel Green says on Friends, “Didn’t you think you’d meet someone, fall in love and that would be it?” If only life were that simple. You know, falling in love and poof happily ever after. People did not prepare us for this. Or at least no one in my life prepared me for this. Not movies, not books, not family. No one ever warned me that sometimes things don’t work out. That sometimes it is okay to stop fighting. I learned, of course, some things you just can’t teach. And sometimes you just need to observe everyone around you.

TV shows tell you a bit of the truth. I think that’s what started making me realize I needed to leave. TV shows don’t just show you the beginning stages of a relationship or when the two characters finally realize they are meant to be together. Some show you the nitty gritty parts of relationships. The hard parts that not many people want to look at.

Back to my over-examining of this roller-coaster of a relationship. I still wonder when it happened. I probably will never pin point it, but I just wish I knew the moment when it happened, but if I had noticed maybe I would have left sooner. Oh well. I hope that others notice these things sooner rather than later. Good luck out there. It’s not easy figuring out what is right and wrong in a relationship. What is worth staying for. It’s not easy to notice.

Until next time…

Justine

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Real Me…

I want…
Someone who is real
Someone who sees me
Someone who would rather deal with my crazy
Then look for someone easy

I need…
Someone who knows the truth
Someone who doesn’t need things to be explained
Someone who can knocks down my walls
Who really wants to

I don’t want…
Another failure
Another loss
Another break
More tears falling down my face

I don’t need…
My mistakes pointed out
My flaws flaunted in front of me
My heart stomped on
Shattered into bits

I want, I need someone to see… the real me.

~ Justine Torres 11/8/2019

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That’s Not What’s Hard…

Love is not what is unattainable
What is unattainable is staying the same
Love isn’t something that is hard to get, or hard to earn
What is hard to get and earn is changing together for the better
Love comes with a price
The price is accepting the one you love for their flaws
For their mistakes
For their problems
Not many can do that
Falling in love is not what is hard

Staying in love is.

~Justine Torres 9/9/19

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The Stuff that Dreams Are Made of

I have a dream.

Big, huge!

I am going to go to college to get my Masters in Creative Writing. Where I am I going to go? Possibly somewhere in Georgia, possibly somewhere in New York. Where am I hoping to go? NYU. It’s the school I always wanted to go to, but then we moved to Georgia when I was sixteen so I had to change dreams. But now that I am old enough, I want to go for it. I want to try and get that dream back and pursue what I want in life. Continue reading “The Stuff that Dreams Are Made of”